Tuesday, July 01, 2008

See No C.

I suspect that I have cancer. But then again, I suspect everyone has at least one type of cancer. Small, big, rapid, slow, benign, malignant - cancers. Except not everyone dies from it, other diseases, other factors get to us before cancer does - like old age maybe.

I suspect myself of having this particular type of cancer since maybe 5 or 6 years ago. Never wanted to deal with it yet because there was so much to do. I wanted to have babies, win the rat race, etc all before I sit down and deal with the problem. Cancer could jolly well wait, I had other better things to do. But you see, that was not the only reason. I was also afraid of the unknown. Ignorance is bliss? You bet.

Now that I have given birth to three kids, tired of the rat-eats-rat-race and I am quitting my job soon, I feel the time has come for me to face my fears.

Went to see a GP a few days ago and after consulting him on the issue, he agreed that I might have cancer, but of course, a biopsy is needed to determine whether the growth is an object of sore or just an object of bore. The doctor gave me a referral letter to a surgeon and another letter for my HR department. This letter among others carried the word 'malignant'.

Back at the office, I handed the letter to HR and waited for them to issue a Guarantee Letter. Then the HR boss came to see me. The word 'malignant' caught her attention and nothing else. She told me that I shouldn’t go do 'it' - whatever 'it' was at a specialist's clinic. It's probably nothing, she said. GP likes to scare us. All you need to do is go see a GP, spread your legs, they'll do the swab, send to lab and then you'll know that it is just nothing. To alleviate your fears, at a GP's clinic, it will only cost the company RM30, as opposed to RM300 if you go do it at a specialist's. Aaah…. simple maths, simple solution to a leeeetle ploblem.

I got pissed off big time because, she never even asked me what or where. My suspicious area is nowhere near the cervics or breast. And, why would GPs scare us into seeing specialists? They would benefit more if they insist to do all procedures themselves, wouldn’t they? And cancer-fears should not be brushed aside. I don’t go see a specialist simply because I have the sniffles. I am responsible enough to not splurge the company's money on unnecessary attention from a specialist. I may have delayed having the thing looked at for many many years, but I do believe that cancer should always be taken seriously. If the roles were reversed, if I were in her shoes, I would advise the staff to hurry hurry go have it checked. Having a biopsy done early might just save the company's money after all. If she suspects herself of cancer, would she compromise on the treatment at all, just so the company can save a few RM?

In the end, I got tired of the process. I guess, cancer will have to wait again.

HOPEFULLY it is NOT cancer though. Amin. Amin.


Anonymous Anonymous said...


Do not wait, or else it may be too late.. (hmm it rhymes)No one wants to know that u may have something terminal, so get it over with lah.

Aida - is appalled by the actions of your boss.

6:55 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sod your HR Boss!

She should know better than to treat an employee as such. Plus the company would be better off taking care of their employees rather than taking the easy way of saving a few RMs.

Go see the specialist asap.

%$$#%!^*!!@ to your HR boss.

I hope things will be better.

9:54 PM  
Blogger Lys said...

Kak Ood,

Don't wait, quickly go... I don't know what's going in your HR little head. Probably so little can't even see the brain...

You'll need to have it checked, do the biopsy if have too.

10:56 PM  
Blogger Lys said...

Insyallah... I pray for da better, kids need their mommy around for a long, long time..

11:04 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ciss, tak guna punya HR boss.


11:06 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


Sad to hear, hope that is not C...
don't scare yourself till u get the result. Me too, tired of the rat-eats-rat-race life, life should be better than this if we dare to change our lifestyle...

take care, phong

12:37 AM  
Blogger JoKontan said...

Madam Ood,

Whatever it is,. Do not wait.

Have a thorough check.

2:47 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


I just felt that way a few weeks ago , after delaying for about 2 weeks coz' I was too scared , finally I went for a check up and it turns out to be muscle strains .
So just ignore your boss and immediately go for that check-up.

3:18 AM  
Blogger Kak Teh said...

OOd - ^%$£"£!!! - go to the specialist! NOW.

5:56 AM  
Blogger Nazrah said...

please don't scare us like this!

go now please. do yourself a favor!

6:29 AM  
Blogger Jeritan Rakyat Marhaen said...

Weyyy.. got tears in my eyes... You don't wait. You don't quit the job. you....

Anyway its a good idea jugak kan.... I sokong u in anything u do...

6:29 AM  
Blogger Ely said...

go now...go now. why wait, do it now and u can treat it early. we all love u u know.

8:23 AM  
Blogger Awang Goneng said...


My prayers go with you. Please have it seen to asap. God bless.

2:44 PM  
Blogger Pak Tuo said...


cOOL....I'll try to find our some herbs leaf planted by my neighbour for the cure.well at least according to her and it is proven to reduce the affted cancer person.Any kIMO yet?My sister had her's and had to be remove.before we find out there is some leaf planted as an alternative remedy.

Worth trying.I did plant some in the shrub.


1:06 AM  
Blogger Tigress said...

Dear Ood,

Oh no.. Of course not.. Insya Allah it will not be.

Remember, its all in the mind? Keep telling yourself that there's nothing to worry about. Mind over matter. At the same time, since u're leaving your job anyway, whack and scream derogatory remarks at the misreable, good for nothing, nak kena lapan das ni, so called HR-loser-boss of yours... and Go Get The Check-Up Done Pronto! Also go for a second opinion please.

My prayers too are with you.

12:40 AM  
Blogger maklang said...

cepat2 pergi check...

moga2 tak ada apa2..

6:23 PM  
Blogger kenakelayan said...

Please go ahead and have it looked at. You already saved your company so much money by keeping yourself healthy and productive. It's time for them to take care of you. HR people most of the time don't know what they are talking about.

11:30 PM  
Blogger fusarium solani said...


Puan Ood,

Pergilah jumpa specialist... Semoga sihat selalu. Terima kasih lawat blog saya tempohari.

10:49 PM  
Blogger Helena said...

hi there.... dont wait.... go now.... maybe tak de apa2 pun.

Apa2 pun do take care...

9:59 PM  
Blogger shidah said...

ood. pegi check. kalau tak de apa-apa lagi bagus. clear your worries.

9:49 PM  

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